I've been feeling like I couldn't say much...

This year started ok but ended to be quite difficult personally. No amount of drugs and hugs take pain away like the kind I have endured this year. I've lost family, friend, trust, and most of all hope and love in someone I truly loved and still find some love. I hope to heal but this to is hard when I have a brain that remembers everything. I've even considered electro-shock therapy to forget this pass year. I'm truly hoping this coming year will bring a better person in me.